Dearest Suzie

Episode 107: 1965-06-27 | The USO: A Home Away From Home

June 27th, 2025  |  9 mins 15 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Bill writes from Da Nang on June 27, 1965, using stationery supplied by the USO, which prompts a reflection on the organization’s unique role in the Vietnam War and beyond. While waiting on maintenance and new orders, he shares his appreciation for the Da Nang USO center, describing it as a welcome break from the intensity of life on base—complete with a library, café, movies, and pinochle games.

This episode explores the history of the United Service Organizations (USO), from its founding in 1941 to its pivotal role in Vietnam, where its entertainers and volunteers helped bring joy, connection, and comfort to troops stationed thousands of miles from home. We also unpack Popi’s speculation about being reassigned to the new air assault division forming at Fort Benning—what would soon become the legendary 1st Cavalry Division (Airmobile), led by figures like Hal Moore.

Episode 106: 1965-06-24 | Oral History Hiccups

June 24th, 2025  |  8 mins 5 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes from Da Nang on June 24, 1965, after a long, grueling week of missions, including the evacuation of a town and a terrifying mortar attack while refueling. Exhausted but still counting down the days, he mentions finally catching some rest and responds to Suzie’s letter, all while quietly processing the loss of another fellow pilot in Vinh Long. He closes with humor and warmth, teasing her about the absence of photos and joking about missing his brother John’s wedding invitation.

Today’s episode reflects on the nature of oral history itself—how we tell stories, how we remember, and how the truth can shift depending on who’s speaking. The letter prompts a comparison between Popi’s own written account of a botched rocket mission and a decades-later retelling in a veterans’ oral history compilation, Knights Over the Delta. The discrepancy—different year, different name, different blame—reveals just how fragile memory can be. But it also reminds us that even with contradictions, oral history remains a vital and deeply human method of preserving the past.

Episode 105: 1965-06-16 | Flying Sick in Da Nang

June 16th, 2025  |  6 mins 36 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes from Da Nang after completing his move north, catching Suzie up on mail, family updates, and a growing sense of fatigue, both physical and emotional. He’s sick with his first cold since arriving in Vietnam but continues flying missions daily due to a shortage of pilots. The letter is full of little domestic concerns, sending a hunting uniform to Al, asking for Bea’s ring size, and teasing Suzie about not sending slides from the camera he mailed her. But behind these day-to-day details is a clear sense of strain. He shares the news that another pilot from Vinh Long has been killed and admits he probably shouldn't have been flying while sick.

Set against the backdrop of Da Nang’s rapid militarization in mid-1965, this letter offers a glimpse into what it was like to be stationed there at a pivotal moment in the war. Just three months earlier, Da Nang became home to the first major deployment of U.S. ground combat troops. The city was transforming quickly: more helicopters, more personnel, more infrastructure, and more danger. Popi’s writing reflects that tension. His tone shifts between playful and heavy, the normal and the extraordinary sitting side by side.

Episode 104: 1965-06-11 | Shooting an Elephant in Vietnam Pt. 3

June 11th, 2025  |  8 mins 41 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes from Da Nang on June 11, 1965, sharing that he’s finally made the move north after his sudden orders. He’s relieved to see familiar faces and to settle—at least for now—into slightly better quarters with hot water and decent food. But even this small reprieve is colored by uncertainty: mail delivery is unpredictable, orders are slow to catch up, and leave plans are constantly changing. He signs off with warm wishes for Suzie’s trip to New Jersey, a reminder that family remains his anchor in a world that feels increasingly chaotic.

Alongside Popi’s letter, this episode continues the fictionalized narrative of “Shooting an Elephant in Vietnam,” a creative reflection that blends fact, memory, and moral reckoning. Drawing on the Stars and Stripes article and George Orwell’s famous essay, this story imagines what it felt like for Popi—or any soldier—to confront the strange orders and expectations of a war fought both in the air and in the villages below. Here, we witness a village’s reaction to receiving elephant meat from American soldiers: the laughter, the confusion, the uneasy gratitude. The narrator wrestles with the conflicting roles—liberator, invader, witness—and realizes how America’s insistence on control often left soldiers trapped in a cycle of expectation and futility.

Episode 103: 1965-06-07 | Shooting an Elephant in Vietnam Pt. 2

June 7th, 2025  |  9 mins 45 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes on June 7, 1965, with a heart heavy from homesickness. He had called home that morning, only to be met with the sweet but painful plea from his son Brian: “Please come home.” It hit him hard. But there’s no time to dwell—orders came in suddenly: pack up, move out. By tomorrow he’d be heading to Da Nang for a 30-day assignment, his platoon already on the move. Once again, the realities of war cut short any rest, any time for family calls or small plans. Even R&R plans to Nha Trang are scuttled—rules and logistics make it more complicated than expected. So instead, Popi focuses on the promise of a week in Daytona Beach when he gets home, trading one stretch of waiting for another.

This episode also begins the narrative of “Shooting an Elephant in Vietnam,” a piece of creative (non)fiction that explores the unsettling overlap between combat operations and cultural destruction. Drawing inspiration from George Orwell’s famous essay, the story uses a real-life Stars and Stripes article to dig deeper into what it means to be a soldier ordered to kill an elephant suspected of aiding the Viet Cong. In a place where everything felt out of place—from Martha Ray’s USO show to the sight of elephants in a clearing—Popi’s service intersected with moments that blurred the lines between duty and humanity. The piece invites listeners to confront the surreal moments of the Vietnam War that never made the headlines but stayed in the memories of those who lived them.

Episode 102: 1965-06-05 | Shooting an Elephant in Vietnam Pt. 1

June 5th, 2025  |  5 mins 17 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes on June 5, 1965, from a moment of anticipation—he’s about to go on R&R in Saigon. But even that, he discovers, comes with its own tangle of logistics and disappointment. He’s learned that the free seven-day leave he’d hoped to take in Nha Trang isn’t available unless he leaves the country. Rather than burning precious leave time, he decides to stay put and promises to save that money for a future trip to Daytona Beach with Suzie and the boys. It’s another small window into the balancing act soldiers performed between downtime and duty, always trying to make the most of both.

Popi’s letter is paired in this episode with a Stars and Stripes article from August 30, 1965, that captures a surreal moment in the Vietnam War: the 114th Aviation Company’s Cobra Platoon—Popi’s unit—shooting an elephant being used by the Viet Cong as a pack animal. The story, complete with helicopter transport of the meat to a local village and the gifting of the tusks to the unit, reads like something out of fiction. Yet it’s real—another piece of the strange, sometimes shocking mosaic of Vietnam. The article’s mention of Popi’s own unit and familiar names like Molinelli and Cosimano ties the story back to his world and ours, offering a connection that bridges the lines between memory, history, and narrative.

Episode 101: 1965-06-04 | In Search of a Vietnam Hero

June 4th, 2025  |  18 mins 26 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi’s June 4, 1965, letter is a short but telling glimpse into a week of steady missions and routine hardships. He’s worn out after long days, reflecting on the slow grind of war and the small comforts of home, a letter from Suzie, an update on car payments, and those custom shirts he finally managed to send out. Tucked in this letter is something that bridges Popi’s world with the larger conflict around him: a request for Suzie to track down a copy of Life magazine from May 28, 1965. Inside, on page 23, is a story about Lieutenant Dale Meyerkord, a man Popi called a friend. Meyerkord was killed in action and Popi wanted the article for his keepsakes. It’s a small but meaningful request, one that reveals the impact of loss, the ways soldiers carried each other’s stories, and how those stories became part of the archive of memory they would bring home.

The second half of this episode takes listeners deeper into Meyerkord’s story, an extraordinary tale of service, sacrifice, and humanity amid the chaos of war. We hear about his fearless leadership, his close partnership with his Vietnamese counterpart, and the quiet moments he shared with those around him. Through the words of the Life magazine article, and through Popi’s own memories, we glimpse the human connections that tie soldiers together. And then we step back, asking the hardest questions: How much can we really know a man through the words he left behind? How much can we really know ourselves? In the end, it’s a meditation on memory, connection, and the search for understanding that never truly ends.

Episode 100: 1965-06-02 | Inheriting More Than Letters

June 2nd, 2025  |  9 mins 14 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes on June 2, 1965, sounding exhausted after another nine-hour day in the air. His letter is short but full of those familiar, loving updates, details about paying off a used car, finally mailing the shirts he had made for Suzie and the boys, and worrying whether they’ll fit. Yet beneath Popi’s routine worries and warm tone, there’s a deeper legacy at play, one he never wrote about in his letters but that still shapes our lives today: Agent Orange. In 1965, Popi wouldn’t have known the name or the dangers of the chemical. Like most soldiers, he thought of it as a tool to clear the jungle, to make his missions safer. But that chemical contained dioxin, one of the most toxic compounds ever created. Decades later, the true costs became clear: severe health issues for Vietnamese civilians and American veterans alike, and the heartbreaking realization that its effects didn’t stop with them.

This episode explores that invisible inheritance. It’s a story of how a defoliant used to strip away jungle cover has left an imprint in the DNA of families across generations. It’s about the real cost of service, the price paid not just by the soldiers who went, but by their families who bear the legacy. And it’s about the hard questions that come with that knowledge: What else did we inherit from Popi’s time in Vietnam? His kindness? His burdens? His regrets? It’s a reminder that history isn’t just something we study; it’s something we live with, long after the letters have stopped.

All Episodes, May 1965

June 1st, 2025  |  1 hr 50 mins

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In this special episode of Dearest Suzie, we look back on the letters from May 1965—a month marked by long flights, uneventful operations, administrative headaches, and the persistent strain of being far from home. Popi writes often about mail, money, and military logistics: insurance policies, bank balances, and the arrival of his 13th Air Medal. He jokes about being spoiled by Suzie’s steady letters and shares his excitement over new photos of her and Brett.

Across the month, Popi balances light-hearted moments with reminders of war’s constant presence. He reassures Suzie about his safety, shares his quiet frustration with Army bureaucracy, and reflects on the weariness setting in.

Episode 099: 1965-05-31 | The Parachuting Monkey

May 31st, 2025  |  6 mins 52 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes on May 31, 1965, during a stretch of unusually quiet days. It’s Memorial Day, and though officially off-duty, the men are restless—itching for something to do. With no missions on the schedule, they head to the range just to kill time. Popi is still waiting on the custom shirts he had made for Suzie and the boys, hoping to get them in the mail soon. It’s a small moment, but it opens the door to a much larger story: the often-overlooked logistics of the Vietnam War, and how those quiet, personal acts—like mailing shirts home—relied on an immense supply chain that kept the war, and the families behind it, connected.

What truly makes this letter unforgettable is its strangest and most delightful detail: Charlie the monkey has officially become “airborne qualified.” Popi describes rigging a parachute onto his pet monkey and dropping him from the airfield tower—an event so popular, it drew a crowd of over two hundred people with cameras in hand. For years, this story floated around the family as a kind of myth, a funny memory that seemed too ridiculous to be real. And yet, tucked in among Popi’s slides was the proof: a blurry photo of Charlie mid-air, parachute deployed. It’s a deeply human moment—silly, pointless, and pure. The kind of story only a 28-year-old soldier with too much time and a monkey could bring to life.

Episode 098: 1965-05-29 | Knights of the Air

May 29th, 2025  |  6 mins 48 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes on May 29, 1965, from a moment of rare quiet. There’s no mission that day, just rest and reflection—and a bit of flair. The letter comes on what he jokingly calls “sexy paper,” printed with silhouettes of a Huey helicopter and a white knight chess piece. These symbols represent Popi’s unit: the 114th Aviation Company, better known as the Knights of the Air.

Formed in 1963 and stationed at Vinh Long in the Mekong Delta, the 114th was one of the Army’s first helicopter companies to see sustained combat in Vietnam. They set the standard for modern air mobility: flying into hot zones, rescuing the wounded, escorting troops, and providing fire support across some of the most dangerous terrain in the war. After nine years of combat service, the unit was reassigned to Panama, where it continued operations in disaster relief, regional support, and humanitarian aid until its deactivation. Veterans of the 114th stayed connected long after, forming an association that keeps the memory alive through reunions, archival projects, and even a coffee table book—where Popi makes a brief appearance. In many ways, they were the unsung lifelines of the war. They got people in. They got people out. And then they kept flying.

Episode 097: 1965-05-28 | When You’ve Seen One

May 28th, 2025  |  6 mins 52 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes with a tone that feels heavier, wearier. He opens with warmth, thanking Suzie for pictures of the kids and slipping in a flirtatious remark he quickly retracts. But the letter shifts quickly. He’s just learned that Ed Piper—a man Suzie knew—was killed in a mid-air collision at Quinhon. Popi doesn’t dwell on it, doesn’t dramatize. He just says it plainly, because by now, tragedy is “just about an everyday occurrence over here.” The mission tempo hasn’t slowed. He flew nine hours the day before and will likely fly more tomorrow. Even an upcoming awards ceremony feels hollow—he’s earned his 13th Air Medal, but the recognition doesn’t carry the same weight anymore. “They’re a pain in the neck,” he writes, adding, “when you’ve seen one, you’ve seen them all.”

Still, there’s a glimmer of hope. Popi’s looking forward to his three days in Saigon and planning to take his seven days of R&R in Nha Trang—a beach town, peaceful and quiet. He doesn’t want more spectacle. He wants rest.

Episode 096: 1965-05-25 | It Won’t Be Long Now

May 25th, 2025  |  6 mins 9 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes on May 25 with a rare sense of warmth and optimism—thanks, in part, to receiving two letters from Suzie in a single day. He mentions that his brother Jim, a Marine, is being sent to the Dominican Republic for a conflict unfolding at the same time as Vietnam acting as part of the wider Cold War logic that sent American troops around the world. Bill doesn’t linger on it, but the mention highlights just how deeply military service ran through families like his. One brother heading into Southeast Asia. The other into the Caribbean. For them, duty wasn’t just patriotic—it was inherited.

In between updates about long flying days and unit losses, Popi shares one of the more touching gestures we’ve seen: he had two photos of the boys—Billy and Brian—enlarged and framed. He writes with pride about how well they turned out, how much he wishes Suzie could see them. These photos become more than keepsakes; they’re anchors. Objects that carry home into a warzone.

Fish, Pharmaceuticals, & Phil | All Episodes

May 24th, 2025  |  35 mins 11 secs

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In this personal narrative episode of Dearest Suzie, we step away from the war letters and into a birthday dinner in suburban Florida—a setting that slowly reveals a decades-spanning story of intergenerational trauma, systemic failure, and the quiet desperation that leads ordinary people to seek help from extraordinary places.

What begins as a quiet evening with Mary, an 81-year-old matriarch, becomes a window into the life of her granddaughter Jessica and the four children caught in a cycle of addiction, poverty, and state neglect. As Mary asks the narrator to write to Dr. Phil on her behalf, the request opens a floodgate of stories—of parental abuse, foster care instability, broken judicial processes, and bureaucracies that punish the people trying hardest to help.

This is a story about how systems fail families, how good intentions become entangled in red tape, and why, when institutions collapse, people turn to outsiders—TV doctors, political strongmen, or anyone who feels like they might finally listen.

Episode 095: 1965-05-22 | A White Knight, Not the Snake

May 22nd, 2025  |  7 mins 3 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes about a surreal mission supporting South Vietnamese troops on a disputed island off the coast of Ha Tien. While the island was claimed by both Vietnam and Cambodia, the mission itself felt more like a break than a battle. Back at base, his thoughts turn to home: a surprise gift for Billy, who hasn’t missed a single day of school, and custom-made blue shirts for each of the boys and Suzie. Embroidered with initials and a white knight. Not a snake or a cobra, but a knight: a symbol of pride and care. And years later, those same shirts would reappear—found tucked away in Mema’s trailer, still intact, still meaningful.

This letter invites a reflection on what soldiers choose to bring home—and how those objects come to matter. In war, men like Popi weren’t just fighting. They were shopping, gifting, collecting. The shirts say something not just about the man who bought them, but about the craftsman who made them. About the little economies that bloomed around military bases. And about how, in the middle of a foreign war, a soldier could still act like a tourist, a father, and a man trying to hold onto home.

Episode 094: 1965-05-20 | Fish, Pharmaceuticals, & Phil, Finale

May 20th, 2025  |  8 mins 22 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes from Vinh Long on May 20 after a rare slow day, sharing simple pleasures and family pride. He compliments Billy’s school paper, jokes about toddler haircuts, and eagerly awaits new photos from home. With little news from the field beyond a trip to the range and an upcoming U.S.O. show, Popi admits there’s not much to write—but in that quiet, you can hear the subtle ache of distance, the strain of trying to stay connected with the ordinary world while surrounded by war. His closing remarks are soft, familiar, and full of longing: "I love you all very much and miss you same as always."

This episode also marks the final installment of Fish, Pharmaceuticals, & Phil. In today’s conclusion, Mary and the family’s frustrations reach a boiling point. As the state continues to offer no solutions, they begin looking beyond institutions—to charismatic outsiders and unlikely saviors. Mary’s faith in Dr. Phil becomes a symbol of desperation and parasocial trust, a last-ditch hope that someone—anyone—might care enough to intervene. The story grapples with Strongman fantasies, media exploitation, and what it means when a system fails so completely that even questionable public figures feel like lifelines. In the end, the narrator steps away from the table, but the weight of the family's pain lingers long after the fish is cleared.