Dearest Suzie

Episode 069: 1965-04-01 | The Heat and the Hesitation

April 1st, 2025  |  8 mins 4 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, we follow Popi through one of the most morally complex days of his deployment. Writing on April Fools’ Day, 1965, he begins with heat and headaches, but quickly moves into a harrowing story of hesitation — where instincts, orders, and ethics collide.

After flying over a minefield and narrowly avoiding disaster, Popi and his crew encounter a group of over a hundred unarmed men in an open field. A Vietnamese officer pleads with them to open fire, certain they are Viet Cong. Instead, Popi lands. The men beg for their lives, claiming to be farmers. They’re let go. Later, the Americans find out the truth: they were part of a group that had attacked a nearby outpost hours before.

Episode 068: 1965-03-31 | The Bombing of Saigon

March 31st, 2025  |  5 mins 38 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes in the wake of the bombing of the American Embassy in Saigon — one of the deadliest attacks against Americans in Vietnam to that point. His letter folds the threat of violence into the rhythms of everyday life, moving between worries about family finances and the sleepless wait for an attack that never came. What’s left unsaid feels just as important as what’s written — a balancing act between reassurance and fear.

Accompanied by a photo which is presumed to depict a square in Saigon, today's episode explores how soldiers carried on in the shadow of uncertainty, holding onto routine even as the ground beneath them threatened to shift.

Episode 067: 1965-03-29 | Bangkok Souvenirs

March 29th, 2025  |  8 mins 41 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi returns from a short but meaningful trip to Bangkok, his letter brimming with souvenirs and stories. With just two nights away from Vietnam, he fills his time gathering gifts — delicate silks, bronze dinnerware, and a princess ring — all chosen with Suzie and the boys in mind. But beneath the excitement of shopping and sightseeing, his letter carries the weight of distance, longing, and the quiet strain of trying to hold a family together from half a world away.

Accompanied by a photo of a temple or shrine, today's episode explores the fragile balance between joy and loneliness in the small reprieves of war.

Episode 066: 1965-03-23 | Halfway Home

March 23rd, 2025  |  7 mins 8 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi marks a quiet but significant milestone — the halfway point of his tour. Six months down, six to go. His letter from March 23, 1965, touches on the routines of life at Vinh Long — training flights, troop lifts, and the growing menagerie of animals that fill the compound. But even in the stillness, the war lingers beneath the surface — in the language he uses, the weariness in his voice, and the small ways survival reshapes the people who endure it.

Alongside stories of Charlie the monkey and the dogs and birds that offer comfort in an uncomfortable place, today's episode grapples with the complicated legacy of wartime language — and the gravity of reaching the top of the hill.

Accompanied by a photo of a monkey playing with a dog, with soldiers looking on, this episode explores the tension between tenderness and dehumanization — the habits that help soldiers get through the day, and the ways those habits can harden over time.

Episode 065: 1965-03-22 | Stories That Survive

March 22nd, 2025  |  5 mins 24 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, the letter itself is short — just a few lines about quiet days, card games, and Popi's plans to bring Charlie the monkey home. But it’s the stories that surround this letter — the ones passed down through generations — that offer a glimpse into the weight of what went unsaid.

Two stories have survived about Popi’s time with the Cobras: one darkly funny, the other quietly heroic. Together, they raise larger questions about how we remember war — and how family stories shape the people we’ve lost. When the written record leaves gaps, what becomes more important — the truth of what happened, or the legacy those stories help to build?

Accompanied by a photo of Huey helicopters flying in formation, today's episode explores the distance between the stories Popi told, the ones he kept to himself, and the ones that survived him.

Episode 064: 1965-03-20 | Behind Enemy Lines

March 20th, 2025  |  6 mins 38 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, the war finally closes in as Popi recounts two harrowing days behind enemy lines. Under steady fire from the Viet Cong, his helicopter is hit three separate times — the final round forcing him to crash-land on an island controlled by the very enemy he'd been fighting. Yet even in the face of danger, Popi’s letter carries the same measured, almost lighthearted tone we’ve come to know — balancing stories of survival alongside the daily routines of feeding Charlie pineapple chunks and planning for a rare three-day pass.

Accompanied by a photo of the interior of a gunship, today’s episode captures the tension between the life Popi was trying to protect at home and the one he was living every day in Vietnam — a world where even the most terrifying moments are tucked between careful reassurances and everyday observations.

Episode 063: 1965-03-19 | Two Worlds at Once

March 19th, 2025  |  6 mins 15 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes from a place caught between two worlds — the one he’s living in and the one he’s dreaming of returning to. As he recovers from reinjuring his ankle, he fills his letter with plans for the future: silk paintings to send to family, matching jackets for him and his boys, and small gestures that bridge the distance between Vietnam and home. Beneath these hopeful plans, though, subtle hints of vulnerability emerge — from the lingering injury grounding him to the financial strain of life as a soldier.

Accompanied by a photo of Vietnamese civilians, possibly refugees or VIPs, today's episode invites us to consider the quieter moments of war — the small, human details that Popi noticed even amidst danger and exhaustion.

Episode 062: 1965-03-15 | Popi’s First Injury

March 15th, 2025  |  5 mins 34 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Bill writes home with news of his first injury in Vietnam—but the story isn’t quite what you might expect. What starts as a dramatic tale of being shot down by the Viet Cong quickly turns into a humorous account of how he actually sprained his ankle—trying to rescue his pet monkey, Charlie, from tangled power lines. The letter highlights Popi’s signature storytelling style, using humor to downplay his injury and ease the worries of his family back home.

Accompanied by a photo of Charlie and Doll enjoying table scraps on the grass, today's episode reminds us that even in the middle of a warzone, it’s often the small, absurd moments that stand out the most.

Episode 061: 1965-03-12 | Rockets and Radio

March 12th, 2025  |  5 mins 50 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Bill writes about receiving his birthday present from home, his first troop lift mission since joining the Cobra platoon, and the strange comfort of listening to Radio Peking's propaganda broadcasts. His amusement at the hostile messages offers a glimpse into how soldiers coped with the psychological pressures of war.

Accompanied by a powerful photo of a medevac helicopter unloading a wounded soldier onto an ambulance, today's episode explores the role of psychological warfare—both in the skies and over the airwaves—during the Vietnam War.

Episode 060: 1965-03-11 | The Black Cloud Overhead

March 11th, 2025  |  12 mins 30 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes to Suzie about the black cloud of bad luck that seems to be following him through one mishap after another — from wrecked helicopters to accidentally jettisoned rockets. What starts as a humorous letter full of self-deprecating stories reveals how quickly the war is forcing him to take on new responsibilities. After only two days in the Cobra platoon, Popi is already training to become a rocket man — flying some of the deadliest helicopters in Vietnam.

Accompanied by an overhead shot of a three-sided military outpost dug into the ground, today's episode offers a glimpse into the unpredictable rhythm of war — where long stretches of boredom can turn to chaos in an instant.

Episode 059: 1965-03-09 | Damn Dirty Words

March 9th, 2025  |  7 mins 18 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes one of his most personal letters yet—grappling with family tensions, money troubles, and the loneliness of separation. While training for combat half a world away, he's still trying to mediate disagreements between Suzie and his parents, all while worrying about whether his family has enough to get by. The letter gives us a rare window into the everyday burdens that followed soldiers to Vietnam—the struggles that didn't make it into history books but shaped their lives just the same.

Accompanied by a photo of women in bright white dresses and conical hats carrying briefcases through town, today's episode highlights the quieter side of war—the unseen emotional labor of balancing family, finances, and distance while serving overseas.

Episode 058: 1965-03-07 | The Wrong Way Round

March 7th, 2025  |  6 mins 45 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes as he begins settling into his new role in the Cobra platoon—training with machine guns and rockets, breaking the monotony with a U.S.O. show, and counting down the long stretch of days still ahead. But beneath the surface of his daily routines, the war itself was starting to shift. While Popi learned the weapons systems of his armed Huey, policymakers thousands of miles away were quietly questioning whether America’s entire approach to the war had been flawed from the start.

Accompanied by a photo of Popi's point of view at the firing range—rockets streaking across the landscape and smoke rising from the ground, today's episode explores how the Vietnam War played out on two fronts: the action and boredom experienced by soldiers on the ground, and the unseen battle for control of the countryside playing out in the minds of U.S. strategists.

Episode 057: 1965-03-06 | Two Helicopters Down

March 6th, 2025  |  6 mins 4 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes from the edge of exhaustion—reflecting on a terrible day for the Cobras. Two helicopters lost. Four men killed. Though he doesn't linger on the tragedy, the weight of it lingers between the lines. Even as he processes the loss of close friends, he holds fast to small routines—checking on the pet monkeys, asking after the boys, and reaching across the distance to keep life at home within reach.

Accompanied by a photo of Charlie and Doll in their homemade cage, today's episode captures the quiet ways soldiers tried to carry on—finding small moments of care and connection in the midst of grief.

Episode 056: 1965-03-05 | Cobras and Cognac

March 5th, 2025  |  10 mins 10 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes two letters from March 5, 1965, giving us two starkly different glimpses into life in Vietnam. The first letter finds him on O.D. duty—walking the perimeter at night, checking the guards, and navigating the uneasy trust between American and South Vietnamese forces. Later that day, he sits down to a formal dinner with high-ranking Vietnamese officers, struggling through lobster and lychee nuts in the name of diplomacy.

Accompanied by a photo of an offensive position along a perimeter, today's episode highlights the uneasy balance between danger, duty, and moments of unexpected humor in the midst of war.

Episode 055: 1965-03-03 | Flying Into Darkness

March 3rd, 2025  |  6 mins 20 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Bill writes home about receiving letters from family, sending a bracelet to his niece, and arranging to repair the family camera—a small task that connects him to home across thousands of miles. But tucked into the end of the letter is a casual mention of night patrol, a routine mission that carried extraordinary risks.

Accompanied by a cockpit view from inside a Huey helicopter, today's episode explores the dangers of night missions and the psychological strain of flying through the darkness, where every shadow could hide the enemy.

Episode 054: 1965-03-01 | Boredom Worse Than Fear

March 1st, 2025  |  6 mins 26 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Bill Lowie writes to Suzie on March 1, 1965, sharing quiet days, family updates, and—almost as an afterthought—his decision to transfer to the armed platoon, trading troop transport missions for combat operations.

Accompanied by a striking photo of a helicopter bearing the mark of the Cobras, today's episode explores Bill’s choice to put himself in greater danger, reflecting on what it reveals about fear, boredom, and agency in war.