Dearest Suzie

Episode 083: 1965-04-30 | Cry On Their Shoulder

April 30th, 2025  |  7 mins 1 sec

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes home after what he calls a "better outcome" in the field. A large Viet Cong weapons cache has been captured, and while the victory lifts spirits briefly, there’s no triumph in his tone — just exhaustion. One day before, he witnessed the death of a friend during a failed recovery mission. Now, he’s trying to hold it together, sharing a short-timer’s calendar with Suzie and quietly admitting he’s still unraveling.

Alongside the war updates, he shares a story about Charlie the monkey, who injured himself trying to eat razor blades and panicked at the medic’s touch. It’s a strangely fitting metaphor for the moment — everyone a little more fragile than usual, just trying to survive.

Episode 082: 1965-04-29 | The Worst Letter

April 29th, 2025  |  7 mins 17 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, we reach a letter that many in my family consider the most difficult to read. Dated April 29, 1965, this letter doesn’t relay an ordinary mission or a humorous aside. It’s a moment of personal reckoning. Popi writes in the aftermath of a mission that left two of his friends dead — and he blames himself.

The day had started as a rare break. He planned to rest, write home, maybe sit in the sun. But a call from Operations changed that. An American captain had been injured, and Popi was sent out to help retrieve him. What followed was a chaotic and dangerous situation, one where friendlies and enemies were too close together to fire safely. When he couldn’t complete the mission alone, he asked another friend — an American advisor named Kelly — to try with ARVN and APCs. Kelly agreed. He didn’t make it back.

This letter isn’t about combat in the traditional sense. It’s about guilt. About what it means to give an order and wonder if you made the wrong call. Popi had flown hundreds of missions by this point. But this one stayed with him. It’s clear that, even as he wrote to Suzie, he was trying to make sense of what had happened. Or at least find a way to live with it.

Episode 081: 1965-04-26 | Military Industrial Complexities

April 26th, 2025  |  7 mins 41 secs

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In this episode, Popi writes after a long day chasing Viet Cong forces through the heat. His tone is dry, understated, tired. He asks about the boys, about birthday parties and photographs, about sizes and gifts and letters never received. In his own words, the work is “not boring, really, but not something that you can write home about.” And yet — there’s so much to say.

This episode steps outside the frame of the letter to explore what President Eisenhower once called the military-industrial complex — a system in which war becomes not just a national effort, but a business. In the years between Eisenhower’s warning and Popi’s deployment, the United States began to lean heavily on private industry to maintain its war footing. Helicopter manufacturers like Bell, chemical producers like Dow and Monsanto, and aerospace giants like Lockheed and McDonnell Douglas turned Vietnam into a proving ground — and a payday.

Popi never names those companies. He doesn’t have to. He lived the consequences. He flew the equipment. He sweated in the flak jackets. He launched the rockets and burned the fuel. Every piece of his daily life was connected to a profit margin somewhere — to a factory, a contract, a congressional vote. And in his silence, in his frustration, we hear the other side of that machine. Not the boardrooms. The mud. The boredom. The waiting.

Episode 080: 1965-04-24 | Swimming Monkeys

April 24th, 2025  |  6 mins 12 secs

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In this episode, Popi writes on a sweltering day in Vinh Long, where the only mission was beating the heat. With no combat updates or news from the front, today’s letter slows down, offering a glimpse of life in between the action, where even the monkeys are desperate for relief.

From Easter reflections to tales of Charlie and Doll’s makeshift swimming pool, Popi captures a rare moment of levity. Doll, it turns out, loves the water. Charlie wants nothing to do with it. And Popi? He’s already spent his payday on a silk suit and is dreaming about a week away — not because he has plans, but because “it’s not Vietnam.”

Episode 079: 1965-04-23 | The Nuclear Option

April 23rd, 2025  |  6 mins 12 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes on April 23, 1965 after finally receiving a long-awaited letter from home. He reflects on family updates, a recent alert mission that came too late, and yet another upcoming awards ceremony — this one to add four oak leaf clusters to his Air Medal. In the same week, American military leaders in Honolulu approved a shift in Vietnam strategy — what came to be known as the "enclave strategy" — aiming to limit U.S. ground operations to a 50-mile radius around key coastal cities. But on the ground, the Viet Cong didn’t follow boundaries, and the plan quickly fell apart.

Two days later, Secretary of Defense Robert McNamara ignited controversy when he suggested, in an off-the-record press briefing, that nuclear weapons weren’t off the table in Vietnam. Though paraphrased by reporters, the message was clear: the U.S. was willing to escalate if needed. The backlash came quickly. At the United Nations, Soviet Ambassador Nikolai Fedorenko condemned the remarks, warning that the U.S. risked repeating the “indelible shame” of Hiroshima.

Episode 078: 1965-04-21 | The Viet Cong Rest Area

April 21st, 2025  |  9 mins 40 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes on April 21, 1965, during a lull in operations. The letter itself is quiet — just a few notes about office renovations, a short range trip, and his ongoing frustration with the mail system. Still, even in a slow week, he finds ways to stay connected to home. He ends the letter with a simple dream: when he returns, he wants to pack up the family, grab a few fishing poles, and spend a day down by a creek doing nothing but relaxing together.

Today’s episode includes a special archival reading from the Chicago Tribune, which published a piece mentioning Popi a month after this letter was written. It offers a rare glimpse into the public-facing version of the war — the kind of article that hometown papers might run, describing missions in sweeping terms and sometimes including photos of the men involved. Popi makes a passing mention of this in his postscript, asking Suzie to keep an eye on the Orlando newspapers. “Our Information Officer sends a lot of pictures of us to our hometown papers,” he says, as if he knows just how far from home he feels.

Episode 077: 1965-04-19 | Some Old Friends

April 19th, 2025  |  6 mins 27 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi returns from two nights of R and R in Saigon and slips into an easy rhythm of gossip and small comforts. There are no firefights in this letter. Instead we get pizza in the city, an afternoon at the Saigon Zoo, and late‑night stories with old friends like Al Guthrie and Fox. He even chuckles at the news that a new helicopter company packed with familiar personalities will arrive at the end of the month.

Beneath the banter sits a quieter truth. Time is dragging. Mail has been sporadic. Popi is counting the days. Listing names and memories is a way to keep the hours moving and to feel tethered to a life beyond the base.

Episode 076: 1965-04-17 | People of the Landscape

April 17th, 2025  |  6 mins 32 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi’s letter from April 17, 1965 takes us to a medal ceremony in Bạc Liêu, where he receives the South Vietnamese Cross of Gallantry. The moment should feel triumphant, yet his tone is subdued. He stands in the heat, listens while his citation is read in Vietnamese, and has a wreath placed around his neck by young women in traditional clothing. For Popi, it is another box checked before two nights of R and R in Saigon.

Using this brief letter as a springboard, the episode looks at how war creates ceremonies that can seem disconnected from daily reality. What do medals mean when the recipient is exhausted and counting days until home? Why do local civilians appear only as backdrops in official rituals? And how do these choreographed moments sit beside funerals for friends lost just days earlier?

Episode 075: 1965-04-15 | The Cross of Gallantry

April 15th, 2025  |  5 mins 4 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes on April 15, 1965, reflecting on another quiet day in Vietnam, a general escort mission, and his mounting boredom with downtime. He assumed that transferring to the Cobras would mean more time in the air, but instead, he's stuck in the long stretch of waiting — between missions, between letters, between homecomings.

But in the middle of this letter, almost as an aside, Popi mentions something unexpected. He’s been told to report to Bac Lieu to receive the South Vietnamese Cross of Gallantry. “Don’t ask me why I’m getting it,” he writes. “I have no idea.” What he leaves unspoken is that this award, officially called the Anh Dũng Bội Tinh, was one of South Vietnam’s highest honors — the equivalent of the Bronze Star — given to individuals who displayed exceptional bravery in combat.

Whether Popi knew the specific reason or not, the letter gives us a glimpse into how casually many servicemen received these commendations. Sometimes medals were handed out in batches, sometimes quietly suggested by a superior officer. But even if the record-keeping was informal, the courage was real.

Episode 074: 1965-04-13 | The Cost of Waiting

April 13th, 2025  |  5 mins 39 secs

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In this episode of Dearest Suzie, Popi writes after a long day that started with a trip to the rocket range and ended with the rescue and repair of a downed helicopter. His friend, Louis Litt, made a safe emergency landing, and by nightfall, the ship was patched up and flown out — a rare win in a war where victories are hard to come by.

But the letter quickly shifts. Lt. Tucker, missing for days, has been officially declared dead. There’s a service planned in Saigon, but Popi doesn’t plan to attend. One was enough. These aren’t isolated events anymore — they’re piling up. And the weight of them is starting to show.

Though not mentioned directly, this letter falls the day before Operation Fact Sheet officially launched in Vietnam. Designed by the U.S. Information Service, this psychological operation targeted civilians in rural areas with anti-communist messaging. But like so many efforts to win hearts and minds, it often missed the mark — or worse, made civilians into targets themselves. Popi may not have named the operation, but he flew similar missions. Loudspeaker broadcasts, leaflet drops. Words meant to change minds. Words often drowned out by bullets and fear.